In a new episode of her Dumbe Blonde Podcast, Bunnie XO explains why she decided to take down her so-called ‘Divorce Episode’, in which she delved into her split from Jelly Roll.

The popular podcast series finds Bunnie - whose real name is Alisa Andrea DeFord, née Carter - interviewing artists such as Parker McCollum, Koe Wetzel, Miranda Lambert and more.

In the episode in question, Bunnie shared some of the details around her high-profile divorce from Jelly, with Texas native speaking candidly about the turmoil of the past few months, while repeatedly stressing that she and Jelly are in a good place as friends.

However, soon after the episode aired, Bunnie removed it from her channel. Fans immediately started speculating as to why this was the case, with some wondering if Jelly had asked for it to be dropped. However, this seemed far-fetched, given Jelly had encouraged fans to go and listen to the episode during a show in New York.

Now, in a new instalment of Dumb Blonde, Bunnie has clarified why she removed the episode, “We took it down because I realized I just don't want one of the hardest moments of my life to become a permanent headline. I don't want to live in that. I believe in being transparent with you guys, and that's never, ever, ever going to change. But I also believe that people deserve the space to heal, to evolve, and to move forward. You know, like, that episode served a purpose for me at that time, and it was real, it was honest, and it came from exactly where I was emotionally in that moment. But I'm not in that same place anymore”.

Bunnie expands, “I think that that's where we need to pause and just kind of focus on the fact that people are like, ‘Oh well, she moved on so fast’. Hold up, I've been mourning the loss of my marriage for at least a year. I had visions of the news breaking of it happening, and there is so much behind the scenes that I have not spoken on, and that I will never speak on because it doesn't matter. I will only tell you guys my part in the demise of my marriage. When people see me out having fun and, you know, just living my best life, I can see why they would be like, ‘Wow, they just announced the divorce’. But really, you guys have to understand, I have been sitting in purgatory for two and a half months in my studio house”.

She goes on, “Literally, there were times where I was on the floor screaming, crying because I could not understand what was going on. You guys had to call and get me IVs because I was gonna have to go to the hospital because I was not eating, I wasn't drinking. Malnourished. I couldn't even stand up because I was so f***ing devastated. You guys took turns watching me, not just because I wouldn't eat, but because you guys were so scared for my mental health. None of you guys would leave me alone. Always just made sure that somebody was there for me. That's what you guys don't see, because on the internet I'm extremely vulnerable, but when it comes to seeing me be weak, this makes me want to tear up. When it comes to seeing me be weak, I will never let you guys see that side of me”.

Bunnie movingly continues, “I think I cried one time on a vlog whenever Jelly and I broke up in 2018. I promised myself that I would not do that, and like, yeah, I might have cried about my book, but those were happy tears...In the divorce podcast, I was super vulnerable, and to be honest with you, I don't like being that vulnerable because, yes, it makes me human, but at the same time, I want women to know you're gonna get through it, you're gonna survive. But also, if I'm being real, I don't want the divorce to become my entire personality. I don't want to be the poster child for divorce. I don't want people DMing me saying, ‘I'm so sorry your husband left you’, when you guys really don't even know the whole story. You guys only know bits and pieces. You know, there's so much more to me than just one painful chapter in my life, and there's so much more that I want to talk about and that I want to create and that I want to laugh about and that I want to experience with you guys. I made 100 grand on that podcast”.

Bunnie adds, “Yes, it was one of my highest viewed podcast episodes, but I don't care about the money. If I cared about the money, I would have left it up and let it get another 100 grand. If I cared about the views, I get views by myself. I post in TikTok and get 10 million views. YouTube has never been my strong platform”.

Bunnie concludes, “You guys have had to watch me live my real life out in front of you guys, and I've tried to do it with as much pride and dignity as I can, while still maintaining the emotional aspect of it, but not teaching people to wallow in it. That's where it gets scary, and that's where you have to walk a fine line of like, ‘What is it, girl? Get up!’...I think people, after divorce, they want you to lay down and die. It's not a malicious thing of me taking the podcast down...Me pulling the episode wasn't about hiding anything or pretending it didn't happen. It was just about choosing not to let one season of my life define every season that came after that. If you guys will allow me to grow, I'll keep growing out loud and healing out loud with you guys...You guys have to allow me that space to be able to grow”.

Bunnie's latest podcast episode arrives a week or so after she was seen kissing TV star Dylan Wolf at Jelly's Nashville bar, with the podcaster sharing previously that the widely circulated footage of Bunnie and Dylan did not cause any issues with Jelly.

Inevitably, with any kind of celebrity divorce, there will be speculation, rumours and conjecture with fans and often media outlets alike attempting to frame one person as “winning” the break-up. But in reality, it has to be a deeply difficult time for both Jelly and Bunnie, and regardless of who's dating who and how much either wants to reveal, the most heartening thing amidst all the supposed drama is that they both still seem to have a tremendous amount of respect and love for one another.